If there is anything on the list of demonstrated behaviors God deemed to show me in 2014, it was that he is sovereign. He is in full control. There is no doubt in my mind. No matter what I attempt, manipulate, avoid or ignore, I fall short. Everything I touch, everything I say and everything I do is under his authority. Even when I think I’ve come to a place of self-control, and things appear to work in the manner that I’ve designed, I am reminded as I see the actions unfold that I am nothing without God. His plans and his actions take into account the totality of a thing, whereas I am divinely limited in sight and subsequently that which I perceive I can impact. The deeper that I come to this realization, and perhaps more importantly accept it, I can operate daily with supreme reassurance. I can be confident that he who began a good work in me (and you) will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus (Philippians 1:6). Easy? Well, not completely….
If there is one characteristic that Altoria Helms instilled within me, its independence. I am not one to ask for help. Not because I would be disappointed, but because I can pretty much navigate on my own. Nothing against anyone else, its just that I hail from a long line of independent women way before Destiny’s Child ever conjured up the sentiment. It has nothing to do with a belief that I can do something better, just the simple sentiment that through God anything is possible. I’ve been through the school of authentically believing that as a follower of Christ I have the ability to operate in the same power that raised Jesus from the dead. That power is a part of our inheritance as followers of Christ Jesus. Yet, when our power comes up against God’s sovereignty, an override is in full effect.
God allows us tools for direction. He provides his Holy Word. He encourages us to have relationship with him. We have access to pray and hear from him. We have the Holy Spirit as a comforter and as a leader into all truth. He places intercessors and prayer warriors to provide prophecy and affirmation. Yet as I’m told my father would say, “In the final analysis” God has the final say. It doesn’t mean that we cease from the utility of the resources that aid us in living a life reflective of Christ, but it does mean that we accept his good and perfect will, even when it feels in opposition to what we desire. Further, if we have truly received the love of Christ, we operationalize our faith to agree that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28).
The result is not a passive believer, but instead a purposeful believer. We must believe that God is not someone who revels in having full control to enact the good and bad, the sunshine and rain, taking great pleasure to see some thrive while others suffer. No matter what we are experiencing, God will not remove or withhold his love for us. Yet, we will be held responsible for our choices. Including in that is my determination to exert control with full knowledge that I may be operating out of God’s will for my life. I am reminded of the words to “Bow My Spirit Prophetic” by Leonard Scott, featuring Darwin Hobbs:
“Here’s my life Lord, you can have it. I don’t want it. I’ve made a mess of things. So here I am Lord. Take me as I am. Lead me where I am. You promised in your Word, if I called upon you, you would answer!”
I don’t profess to be an expert in unfolding the dimensions of sovereignty and God’s will. In the words of Oprah, here’s what I know. I need God. I love God. He loves me. He knows the plans of my life. He knows me. I desire to be in relationship with someone who wants the best for me. Through the attaining of that best, I will be presented with beautiful opportunities and difficult engagements. I don’t desire to navigate the good, bad or the ugly without him. I want to be ruled my him, and not myself. I accept his sovereignty.
Check out the song referenced in the blog post. I pray that it ministers directly to the need in your heart.